What Will I Be When I Grow Up?

Holy sheeet, sometimes I drive myself crazy when I can't make up my very own mind. So what would be my dilemma this time? Well, it's actually one that I've had for a while now. Now that all of my kids are in school I am trying to determine what my career choice will be.

Let's start with what I have already done. I have been a sales associate/supervisor for a few different retail stores, such as Carter's Childrenswear, Docker's, Nine West, etc. I have been an emergency medical and fire dispatcher/supervisor, and for a short period of time was a volunteer EMT. I have been a police dispatcher. And then my career got put on hold when I had a high risk pregnancy with my last child, my son. So this is what started my stint as a stay-at-home mom.

I love how I got to watch my kids grow and didn't have to place them in someone else's care. For placing them in someone else's care I have learned can really piss a mom off. You know, like when the sitter isn't home when you arrive to drop your child off, but all her little kids are home and one of them offers to watch your baby for you. Right. Or when you go to pick up your child, obviously from a different sitter cause the last one didn't work out for some crazy reason, and when you arrive you find that your baby has just been given a hot bottle straight out of the microwave. Some people really should come with "I'm stooopid" tattooed on their forhead, save the rest of us the trouble.

Yet on the other hand I have missed the working world. I know, it may sound crazy to some. My friend shortmama says I'm crazy to think that way...but she says it's probably because I actually found a job that I loved. I guess I have to agree with her. I LOVED being an emergency dispatcher. Loved it...miss it.

So, my dilemma is that there are two career choices that I am seriously considering. But in order to do them, I feel my kids need to be a bit older. I would like to either go back to being an emergency dispatcher...or I would like to go to school to be a nurse. If I were to be a dispatcher then I would just have to sit tight for a few more years until the kids are older that way I don't have to worry about the hours that would be required of me. They would be more capable of taking care of themselves and my oldest would be in high school by then and would be able to help more. As for the nursing, I would atleast be able to start the schooling now, something to help fill the day now that all the kids are gone. I love to learn also, so that would be a benefit. But I don't know how interested I am in incurring a bunch of debt from school loans. This option would allow me to atleast be working toward my career option before I have to start working the hours of a nurse.

So this has been my internal conversation with myself for a while now...and it will probably continue to invade my thoughts for a while now until I decide to make a move.