Dear 10-year-old self,
Though you had been through so much through your childhood, it's all gonna be all right. You will get through all you went through from not being able to live with your parents, to watching them destroy themselves through drugs, through having to go down to the neighbors house just to be able to have something to eat, through seeing a lot of painful things, through being a neglected child...to become a wonderful, productive and strong-willed adult.
Don't invest so much time in to fake friends for they won't even be a part of who you are when you are older, when it matters. Don't be that shy and be sure of yourself, everyone is going through their own things too, so there are things that go unsaid because everyone hides their own personal life trials.
Just because you grew up with your grandparents and lived with them at the motel that they owned does not mean it will be a good idea to sneak out at night. You just may regret later down the road some of the things that you chose to do at too early of an age. It will be an experience none the less, and some of it will make you laugh at the memories, but there really is a reason why you are told not to do something. And you should realize that you need to let your grandma know that they need to put a different lock on your bedroom door so the hired help doesn't use the master key to go into your room and steal your shit. At least you will be smart enough to realize that whenever you see the girl wearing your stolen ring that maybe it will be best to not confront her on it, after all, if she knocked a boy out with one punch, just imagine what she would do to your skinny little a$$.
You may not know what you wanted to do with yourself when you got older for a career, but you will find the best career ever. Don't worry so much about what you will be. You will become an emergency dispatcher and have a career that doesn't feel like a job at all, it is something you absolutely love.
And by the time you reach your 30's, you will be absolutely happy, with just a few kinks to work out here and there, but really, it's all good!
Go see Shortmama at Family of Shorts for some more Dear Someone letters!
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oh yes the fake friends! If only we had known better to hang out with each other as kids instead of the "others". But of course if we had done that we probably wouldnt have made it to be adult friends and I will take this any day!
ReplyDeleteI am glad things turned out so well for you. I know what it is not to have a normal childhood.
ReplyDeleteWouldn't it be so nice if we really could warn ourselves?
ReplyDeleteGreat letter. It would be so nice to go back in time and tell ourselves that it's all gonna be ok.
ReplyDeleteWow. I had no idea you'd been through so much. I'm glad it made you stronger though, and that you're happy now.
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